What am I doing with my life?

What am I doing with my life? I am not doing anything. Im a mom to a soon to be 6 year old. And I dont have a career or any schooling other than a GED. Yes I have goals. But where are my goals really getting me sitting on this couch typing this. And all of this is sparked because I started looking at college courses. I want to start schooling but I also want a car to take me places so I can do this stuff. Being a grown up is so hard.

New Year and positive thinking

I know that it's not the first of the year. But I didn't start thinking like this until now.  I have been so negative about so much latey and that needs to change.  I realize that i need to be a better mother to Adrian and a better person for myself.  Im not completely going to do a change overnight. But i will make changes little by little.  I hope this year will be a start of good and better things for me.  Hell maybe by 2014 we can get a dog.  Yay right?

Christmas eve

So it's Christmas eve morning,  and I'm in bed sick.  It sucks.  but I can't wait til Adrian goes to bed tonight so I can get everything ready. I have been waiting forever for it.  Lol

Damn phone

So last night when I was in bed, I connected my phone to dropbox. I found out that I could write, so I did a long blog post about the day, elf on the shelf and feeling like my body was going to break down. THEN I accidently pushed the home button and the phone erased it. Argh. It is so annoying. I might re write thing whole thing later when I get back home from walking adrian to the bus. So later for now!

Been a while

I decided that I would starting writing again. I really hope that this writing for me helps me cope with Adrian, my life and dealing with adrians father. This is a short, hello. I am back, miss me? lol.

This morning, I woke up. And was half hoping for an easy morning. Did I get it? Nope. I got Adrians food ready, turns out, I did it wrong. He screamed and yelled and cried because he didnt want jelly on his biscuit, he wanted butter. After a good 10 minutes of crying and being frustrated with him, he finally ate. then had breakfast.

I have no patients anymore for him. He is so hyper and his mood can change in an instant.

Everyday

So I decided to make another blog because everyday is a struggle with Adrian. There are struggles I face with him everyday. I hate being a single mom just because of the screaming and fighting with me about every little thing. I just made dinner and he screamed and fought that he didnt want pasta and he didnt want anything. Then he fought with me because something was wrong with the floor or chair. THEN he fought with me because he didnt want butter on his pasta. And then a pillow pet thing came on and then he started asking for a pillow pet and then I said no. And then he yelled at me that I was a bad mom and I didnt love him.

Its horrible like this everyday. He loves fighting with me.