Sunday, April 28, 2013
More things Ill never say
Really? I mean contunine with what? Of you not talking to me? Of me waiting for you to talk to me first? Good riddance. I guess I wasnt that good in anything. Or important. I want to fight this time but Ive given up on trying to fight for something that we both know will not happen. But here I am with my hands up in the air saying I do not care anymore, do whatever.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
It hurts
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Letter to you
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Its still hard
Every so often my ex will go through a couple minutes of saying how he wishes that we could have worked out and he loves me and yadda yadda.
This is what he said this time
You know one regret I have even though I love B and I thank god for K but I wish I would have tried harder to fix us back when I feel like Ive missed so much of his life. You know I awlays wanted to be a family with monk but so much happened I just gave up. I always will have love for you yvonne.
I had already been crying. And it just took me by surprise and I cried somemore. I didnt reply anything back to him, but I did write him a note that I plan to throw away.
C-
If you ever feel the need to tell me that ou love meor you wished life was differently please write it on a piece of paper and throw it away. Keep it to yourself. There is no reason to open a healing wound. If you are having problems at home - fix them. Change to save your marriage.
As innocent and nice that might sound, I know he will take it the wrong complete way. And flip out. I am done being a toy. I spent 6 years with him. Things werent perfect, I messed up. He messed up. He left me for B. He doesnt tell the story the same way. But.. I know it..
I wasnt even suppose to be with him around the time he left with B, I was suppose to be an army girlfriend and waiting for him to get out of bootcamp. But that never happened..
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Looking back
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Trying to be happy
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Missing someone.
So I knew this guy for like ever. I dated him before I dated adrians father. Then when his dad made move out and we broke up. I got with L, 3 weeks after we had been broken up. Things between L and I were good. He was signing up for the army and he was going to basic. Then adrians dad got in my head and it caused problems with us.
I go back to him and that time, and I wish we could just turn back time. I know it's not possible but its one of those times where I was strong and I wished I could stay strong because I had a rock. And it was more than that. He cared about Adrian. I know I gotta move on.
It's times like now I'm kicking myself in thinking, I maybe had pushed the right guy away because I regret my past too much. I still have to have some kind of faith in everything and hope everything will work out for the best.
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